i shd hf seen it coming.. true enough, i m down with a fever now.. started with that headache in class....bodyache, sorethroat........now the complete works.. sigh....
culprit? overworking.....
i took too much into my hands. got excited. tot it was a perfect distraction for many things.. tuition, drama class.. sch..everything...... what was i thinking? started off well.... now... sigh.. i started reali stressing out. kept thinking abt everything.. even the tot o wk stressed me out. still stresses me. for eg, when i m wking in morning stress abt after sch drama class. after that, there's the two tuitions. too much. at the end of the day, im so tired i can only sleep. sigh....before sleeping, i stress abt the next day. this is the reason why my hair has been falling out drastically. the reason ive been constantly having breakouts. reason why i hf no time for anyone. i dun like this.
today, supposed to take the tuition kids out for an outing.. coz they just finished their CA. feel bad abt disappointing them... in bed now....... sigh... even at home, the tension does not stop. mum yelled and cried abt me not helping with hse chores. i cd not take it....... even wen down with a fever, i get to hear all these. as u wd have gathered from my previous posts, this is a norm here. her shouting. refusal for outside help. disability to understand her daughter's work problems.. so i retire to my room. for a bit of peace.
brother leaving for aus today.another cause for tension in te hsehold. wish i cd run away to another cty.